I mean, this is life right. This is how it is. Some things are completely out of my control, and that’s fine. But some of this I’m just bringing on myself. I can see the train wreck happening and I’m just still walking down the tracks. They’re magnetic. More like he’s magnetic. Get a grip. Run away. Do anything, but don’t just stand there. That’s what I tell myself at least. But my heart says no, these tracks are nice, they’re bright, they’ll lead you to a new place.
Another part of me knows what they’ll really lead to though. Destruction. Heartbreak. Complete and utter shut down of feelings. I have to make a choice eventually. I can hurt now or I can hurt later. I’ve always been one for procrastination.
I’m the jealous type . You wanna know why? Because we started off as “just friends,” too.(via ieatyourgirlright)